What’ll it be

10 March, Friday
4:00 pm

Sigh. Or maybe not.

Read this somewhere today, “No body is actually ever too busy to respond. If they didn’t answer, they didn’t want to”. It’s true after all. Yep. People just reply a little (read very) late, like it’s a formality they’ve to get over with (rather than not replying at all). Annoying, is it?

Aye, such sad talk. Let’s cheer up a little.

I did have some things to say. But can’t quite recall it atm.
Um okay. So, I’m a really really flawed person (which I’ve made amply clear before too). Yesterday, I slept mostly. Didn’t study at all. Didn’t do much today too, up till now.

Ah. Whatsoever will you do, little one (I’m talking to myself, yeah. Not crazy).

And why can’t I have an easy way out. I have to work, yep. It’s cool though.

Goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!

What’s happening in the world. Peace, please do prevail.

see you
ttyl

A little of this and a little of that

4 March, Saturday
11:40 pm

Hi there!

Right, so I had written all this in the metro on my way back home on Wednesday.

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1 March, Wednesday
6:55 pm

I think this thing would always be like this. Me not knowing what’s the joke about (basically, me never truly being ‘in’ in the group).
It’s not such a pleasant feeling, well of course. But it just is. I don’t know if I send good thoughts into the universe, would that change things?
Hmmm
I don’t know

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Well, I should get over this stuff. But it’s just that, it’s good to be somewhere (where) you truly belong. I did know where or better yet with whom I actually did, but it was a wee bit late.

So, someone I truly adore and respect says that they don’t know my worth (don’t value me). And that I’ll soon meet the people who really do. Cheers to that day!
You know though, there are some lovely souls in my life rn who do know my worth. And I truly love them. They’re a bunch of beautiful people. I wish I had hung out more with them. But I do whenever I can.
It’s all a little messy tbh.

I wish I was (and still hope to be) a little (a lot more tbh) bolder.

There’s this another thing. I get so camera conscious. My candid photos do come out better for the same reason. Someone asks me to pose, and it’ll be a disaster (well, usually). I feel bad for the people in the same frame as me. It could have been a better photograph had I not been so awkward. Had I not been me. The *me* me.

So, tomorrow’s the first day (today, it’s after midnight now). And I think I better sleep now. Tomorrow (today) should be a great day. Uhhh. I shouldn’t overdo it. Have no expectations. That works better for me, you know. Alright then, tomorrow would be just like any other day. Perfectly normal.

Okay then
Goodnight
Lots of love ❀
And just goodness and happiness
And all the loveliness and kindness

It’s all working out, you (I) just can’t see it yet. It’s like the behind the scene productions is in a frenzy, making it all work. Making all the pieces fit together beautifully. You’ll soon see. It’ll be a dream. A soul-stirring beautiful one.

And thank you! Love you! πŸ™‚

P.S: I think I did well in the exams. So, it’s all cool.

Not much to say

25 February, Saturday
11:13 pm

Right. So, hello.

I suppose you’re doing fine. And I’m alright, I think.

I don’t have a lot to say. Oh! I did get my learner’s license today. Yeah, and it was a long day today, and I didn’t study much. Nada tbh. I should start soon. You would, won’t you. Hopefully, I will.

I’m excited, kind of, for the classes beginning 5th. It’s a Sunday. I’ll get to learn so much. And more than anything else, I’m happy about the knowledge I’d attain (no kidding though). I know it sounds nerdy, but that’s how it is. I think I’ll enjoy those subjects.
Not so much technical overload, it’ll be lighter. Though there’ll be a lot of stuff to absorb, but I’m fine with it πŸ™‚

I’m happy that college is ending. I know, usually people aren’t so psyched about it, but I think college hasn’t been the usual happy carefree experience for me. Um.. there’s been a fair bit of (what’s the word) stormy waters that I’ve had to sail through. Weird vibes. Obfuscating relationships (?). Heartbreaks. People stomping all over my heart.

Eh.

I’ve had my share. But I’ve met some lovely people too. I think in the end it boils down to the company you share (keep(?)). Going through such stuff made me realise who actually matter. To whom do I really matter..

I wouldn’t want to live these 4 years again. I know. But, it’s okay. These little things make me who I am.
I could have done so much more. Been a beautiful butterfly.
Run away from people who give you the heebie-jeebies. You really cannot force yourself to like someone. Vice-versa. It just happens. And it’s mutual, I guess, to an extent.

But it’s okay. I got to see both the worlds. The good, the bad. It made me appreciate all the goodness around me.

Yeah. I think I’ve said a lot more than not much. Thanks for bearing with me.

Also, I hope to get above 85% (somewhere around 86-87%) this semester. Btw I got 85.3% last semester. Yup. Thanks! For everything.

And I will get down with the studying. I’m such a big procrastinator -.-

Yeah. So see you soon.

Copper
Lots of love
Someone you know

Today and everyday

9 January, Monday
11:20 am

Anyway, so Hi

I’m still not placed. And yesterday I had a heart to heart talk with a person. It was great. It was the person’s story. Really, I was dazzled by it. I never knew the stuff she told me. Some kids in high school can be such a mean bunch. But she overcame everything that was encumbering her from living a great life. She’s a really cool kid πŸ™‚
*Touchwood*

I really do want to be a better person.
You know. I’ve realised this one thing. All that matters (well, mostly) is the people you have in your life. Loving, encouraging individuals can change one’s life for the better. Or you know, everyone just lives a happy peaceful life. But abusive, negative people, friends they’re all a big heap of shizz, no good.

So, yeah, peaceful life with loving kind beautiful individuals. That’s the dream.

I know there’s still kindness left in the world. I’ve myself, firsthand experienced kindness. Those are the beautiful people. The kind ones.

Anyway

Um.. I had to say something different. But idk, well it’s okay. The good ones should be appreciated.

So, yeah
TTYL

Love you loads
Live a great life
Stay strange (Ha ha)

Anyone there?

12 October, Wednesday
9:45 am

This is just the stuff I wrote down last time but never posted.
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7 October, Friday
10:20 pm

Yeah. It’s 12:25 am, the next day. Sigh

I’m not sad. Maybe. But I ain’t hapy either.

It’s 1:04 am now. Am I sleepy? Maybe. A little. I’m hungry too
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Anyway, getting back to today.
I have to take a bath. So, brb.

I’m back. 10:30 am
Washed my hair too. I write random shizz here, don’t I. It’s just um.. this place is like my personal space. My thoughts, pure and unbridled, bundled away. Ah

I had a lot on my mind, a few days ago. But, right now, when I’ve sat down to write (type out) everything, no words come to my mind. Strange.

Yeah. It was part about placements, part about life (how I’ve never and maybe never could (/can) be like those popular queen bee type girls, not that I want to be), part random fleeting thoughts. Eh.

Oh. Btw we decorated our room with fairy lights. It looks so quiet and peaceful. Little white lights, unblinking. Such little things give such happiness. It changed the whole look of our room.

It’s 1:13 pm. Yeah.

So, Universe, I know you’re on my side. Always have been. I’m just a late bloomer, I reckon. It has always been so, at least. I look okay now. Prettier (if I may). Earlier, like a few years ago in school, I didn’t. I sported a weird haircut, which changed every year. I remember once, I cut it so short, I looked like a boy. Ugh. Now, I have long flowing locks. Touchwood. Anyway, all this doesn’t really matter. How one looks. Or, maybe it does. Science says attractive counterparts earn more. Looks, huh?

I want to have a bikini body, you see. Maybe if a just lose a few kilo. Five, I think. It’d be great.

It’s 2:30 pm

So much drama. I don’t like fake and pretentious people. f those aholes. I won’t call them to my wedding. Huff. Maybe I’d have to though. Anyway.

Universe, get me placed in a really good company. Soon. Yay!

I want to earn and spread happiness. ClichΓ©d much?

Idk why did I talk about having a bikini body. Sigh.
It’s fine. I’ll ttyl

Good day
Ta ta

Sleep sleepety sleep

7 May, Saturday
11:20 am

I woke just now. Sucks, I know. It’s pretty late.

I don’t like this cycle. Sleep so late. Get up so late. And after so mush sleep, feel so tired. Sigh
Also, did nothing productive when I wasn’t sleeping.

I was looking for something. Now, that I know that thing was never mine in the first place, I better stop looking for it. It was just a pretty memory. It’d forever be so.

Chagrin so petit

I have better things to do in life than sleep. I should do something about it.
Anyway, major practicals got over yesterday. Theory exams from 18th. They’d be ending by the end of this month.

I have to focus on Heat Transfer. I want to do really well in it. Get really good marks.

I’ll get going on now. Have to shampoo.
I read somewhere long ago, whenever you’re feeling down, take a bath and get into a nice pair of clothes. It’s like a new start, new day (even if it’s 7 in the evening).

See you then.
Lots of love πŸ™‚

Being me!

23 September, Wednesday
00:04 am

Being me is ,well, a lot of work πŸ˜›
I am very very indecisive. Quite a confused person. One thing I could change about myself would be this – to take spontaneous decisions. Also, to not regret those decisions. And to not overthink.

Hmmm

Exams got over last week. They were fine.

Don’t feel like writing more. Need to complete an assignment, microprocessors and microcontroller, 8085 & 8051.

See you then
Goodnight
Love you loads πŸ™‚
Muaahhhh..